We have entered lockdown number 3, I’m at peace with it. I am maintaining a forced level of calm within our little family unit.
For the first time in a long time everything seems to have been causing an element of fear and anxiety. People I know who are nurses that have been interpreting tier 4 rules to suit their own circumstances, my brain cannot seem to cope with this. Too many emotions, more importantly, too many conflicting emotions. Preventing me from settling or dealing with any of them. This does not help me nurse. This does not help me function as a mum, as a girlfriend, as a daughter, as a sister or as a friend. So I will find a way to work through this.
Bullet journaling has helped me in the last year. I started in February last year when my daughter kept showing me all these pages she was doing and sending me Pinterest pages. Mine reflects me, completely random, no set format, no repetition and used as and when I want to to help me make sense of something, or record something, or just as a mental distraction. I highly recommend it.
The Bi-polar Nurse 